Monday, February 9, 2009

5 Years Ago - TODAY!

Wow! I just realized this morning that it was 5 years ago TO THE DAY (Monday, February 9, 2004) that I found out that I was pregnant with our first son and going to be a Mommy! Boy has time flown and have our lives changed in such a short span of time (of course only for the better).

I remember that day so vividly.....I KNEW that my body was always like clockwork and when I had no signs at all that my period was on the horizon I went to Walgreens on my way to the office and bought a two pack of Home Pregnancy Tests and used one while I was at work.

I sat it on my desk (hidden by my computer key board from anyone who might walk into my office) and watched as the one line became TWO and was a sure sign that I was pregnant. My hands began to sweat and my heart racing! How could it be so......we had JUST started trying and it wasn't really "trying" that hard. We had been on vacation and just threw caution to the wind. This was supposed to take us 6 months to a year! At our ages, we were supposed to have difficulty getting pregnant! Even my best friend Betsy had told me to be prepared for it to take a long time! OMG! I'm pregnant!!! I was so scared! Like I had done something wrong when I knew that I hadn't.

I actually was a bit scared to tell Tim (I have no clue why)so I waited until the next morning and took another test at work and prepared myself break the good news to him when he got home from work. But what could I do? How could I tell him? I wanted it to be in a way that he'd always remember! At that time, I was a part of an online group called "The Knot" (a chat board dedicated to wedding planning. Once you got married then you would leave the planning chats and move into the chat boards focusing on becoming parents and conception). Thanks to many other women who had been through the same anxious moment that I was now encountering, I had read about a poem that was PERFECT and a great way to tell your husband that he was going to be a Daddy.

So I took the poem, superimposed it onto a picture of a precious little baby and at the bottom of it put "Happy EARLY Valentine's Day! I Love You! Libby 2/10/04 and rolled it up and put it in a box to give to Tim when he got home.

I sat in our bedroom at home that night waiting and waiting for Tim to come home. As soon as I heard the front door close, my heart started racing and my hands became cold and clammy! He walked into the bedroom and said "Hi!" and I just held my breath and handed him the box (it was a plain cardboard box about 2" wide and 8" long) and said "You are NOT going to believe what I found today that we brought home from Jamaica with us!" Like we had smuggled some poor innocent little creature home from the islands and unfortunately had met it's demise in the bowels of our luggage.

Tim opened the box with a confused look on his face and looked back at me. As he unrolled the paper and read what it said on it I saw the confused and furrowed brow on his face turn into a smile. He understood my message! That he was a Daddy and that we had done it! We had created a life and were going to be parents! Wow!

5 years ago today, I became a Mommy (and quit smoking COLD TURKEY)! I wouldn't trade my life for anything in the world!

By the way, the original piece of paper with the poem that I gave Tim sat on our refrigerator for the 9 months that I was pregnant with Jack and is now framed and hangs on the wall above his chest of drawers in our bedroom. A constant reminder of that very special day that we both will remember FOREVER!


Kelly said...

That is so sweet, Libby!!! I can't believe it's been 5 years! Where did our babies go?!?!